Finding it hard to cope with Michael Jacksons death?

I know people are probably sick of hearing about this subject but I feel I need to tell someone how I feel. So I was never a huge Michael Jackson fan, I had one or two CDs and I'd watched the awful Martin Bashir doentary and the 2005 trial (I'm only 20 so you could say I didn't really grow up with his music) I never really paid much attention until his death. Over the past week I've become increasingly depressed and a little obsessive in finding out everything I can about his life. I now realize what I've been missing out on and I can't get over what a wonderful person he was. I've been on the verge of tears for days and the slightest thing makes me just break down and weep. I feel like I've let him and myself down not appreciating him when he was alive. The worst thing is I can't speak to anyone about how upset I am. They wouldn't understand, I was never that much of a fan so why should I be feeling so sad now? But I'm absolutely distraught. I don't know how to get over it. I feel like someone I actually knew personally had died and there's nothing I can do to change things. I know a lot of people are feeling the same way and I sympathize but what I really need is help in getting through this. I've been feeling worse and worse as the days go on. Please help.